you aint cool like me

i am so cool liddat ! okay, so i dont need a friend that only have popularity but dont have a fucking brain. you know people now days.

one million reason

i can list like one million reason why i love you boy, but just in short, you are the only person that can make me happy. i dont know until when, but insyaallah, forever.

hopefully you'll never get tired or bored with my attitude. i tau kerja i asyik tumbuk, cubit you apa suma, but, you tahan je lah okay sayang, haha.

i remember the day yang you malu gila nak cakap ILOVEYOU dekat i, haha. lepas tu i merajuk. you cakap, okay sayang, ILOVEYOU :D hee, seriously sayang, the more you shy, the more cuter okay, haha. grr.

sayang, i dont really care what others say about you. i love you for who you are and for who i am when im with you.

you are my sweetheart. iloveyou sayang. i really do. <3, loves, nadh

holiday get away .

tok just called.

tok : kakngah, tok dah masukkan duit kat bank.

me : tok, buat apa ada duit kalau taktau nak buat apa dgn duit tu.

tok : eleeh, tu lah orang suruh balik taiping taknak.

me : kakngah tuition lah tok. sorry lah. nnti kakngah balik tau

tok : okay laah mcm tu.

seriously got money but didnt know what to do with it. ammar and mukhkiss pergi taiping for holiday. qayyum dah start balik kolej. bean kerja. kawan, hmm. aint got no kawan here. so, im a bit stress. stress because tak buat apa apa. pagi petang malam asyik tgk muka bibik. parents pula, malam baru nampak bayang. grr, im so freakin lonely ! this holiday, didnt go as well as it should be. god, it stressing me out.

kita pun nak marah mcm awak D:

ni jadinya kalau lelaki tamak. selalu lebihkan ego sendiri daripada pikirkan perasaan orang yang dia sayang. dia pikir semua decision yang dia buat tu betul. so, kalau dah rasa betul, kenapa sekarang ni dia serabut. tak boleh selfish laah. dah kau happy, kasi lah orang lain chance happy juga. sekarang ni nadh dah happy dengan bean. pastu baru sekarang kau nak tepek aku maki aku apa bagai. come on lah. kita dah history kot. sedar sikit. aku pun tak ambik port pasal kau. takkan pasal baju pun kau nak marah besar. chill sudah. kau panggil aku pelacur apa bagai, aku still boleh buat cool lagi. kau tau kenapa ? sebab aku takkan buang masa nak mengamuk benda bullshit mcm ni. aku tau sape diri aku lah. tak perlu nak mengamuk sakan. kau nak jumpa aku ? haha, kenapa sekarang ? kenapa tak dulu before kau kantoi dgn aku pasal betina kau yang bersepah tu ? kau nak kata aku mulut puaka ? okay. mulut puaka pun boleh :) ye laah, kau je yang baik kalah malaikat kan. aku je yang jahat kaan ? jahat jahat aku, aku tak tidur dengan betina lain. aku sedar diri aku ni siapa. kau kata kau didik aku ? haha. iye lah. kau didik aku jadi bitch . sekarang ni kau patut bersyukur kau dapat awek yang alim :) so that dia boleh didik kau juga. insyaallah.

to little too late boy. im sorry.

so boy, this is for you. things change now. i make my own flow now. and i took bean along with me. i hope you understand. you cant touch me now.

MONDAY 6.6.2011, 1.15 A.M

today was the happiest day of my life. bean asked me to be his princess. bean, dia actly kawan apis. goodfriend actly. mula2 rasa susah nak couple cos, we both pikir about apis feeling. and then i asked him to call apis. at first, he didnt want too. cos takut. i ingat we'll never be together. but then, he has guts to call him. guna my phone. and then apis angkat. like this convo diaorng :

BEAN : apis, serious aku nak cakap something. tapi jgn marah.
APIS : apa ?
BEAN : aku suka kat ex kau.
APIS : sape ?
BEAN : alahh, nadh.
APIS : *silent moment* kau biar betul. nadh ? nadh aku ?
BEAN : ha ah. nadh. *he looked at me*
APIS : kau jgn buat kelakar.
BEAN : aku serious doh. aku suka kat dia.

BLAH BLAH BLAAAAAH........................................

BEAN : kau okay tak ni apis ?
APIS : hmm, aku okay je. just, kau jaga je lah dia elok2. lagipun aku dah letgo dia kan.
BEAN : bukan apa apis. aku pikir kawan. aku nak kau okay.
APIS : yeah. aku okay.

NADH MASUK :

NADH : apis, nadh ni. hmm, hopefully you boleh accept kalau bean dgn i. i like him apis. he make me smile again.
APIS : hmm, seriously its your decision.
NADH : yeah. and i love him. its not fair kalau you je boleh happy apis. since you tinggal i, i hari2 sedih. but now i dah ada bean. please kasi i happy okay apis. tak fair kalau you happy and i tak.
APIS : i still love you nadh. kalau you nak tahu, hari2 i stalk fb you. i sayang kat you. but i guess, i should stop that.
NADH : yeah you should apis, cos you know why, the time that you kantoi dgn i kat NZ haritu, that was the last time ILOVEYOU. im sorry. i dah buang our history. i dah move on even though it takes a lot of time.
APIS : i know. im sorry too for everything. well, congrats both of you. please jaga bean.
NADH : i will. dont worry.

so yeah. apis was to little too late. if dia tak pentingkan ego dia dulu, well maybe JUST maybe, we still together. but seriously, i never regret anything. .

angrybirds become angrynadh

okay, there i was having my beauty sleep and sudden GEDEGANGGGG pintu bilik terbuka. it was mama. she's looking for her phone. and she asked me. lol, where the hell i know mana you letak phone mama. god ! and then she yelled at me, ' dah pukul berapa dah ni? bangun bangun' arggggh. i cant sleep for two days laah. please lah faham. but she didnt -.- she took my precious selimut and ask me to get up. okaaay, so i went downstairs, dengar baba membebel about cars. he's otp with his friend. i know they talking about cars. baba decide to buy a new car for mama. damn ! you oledyy have 4 cars. nak sampai 5 buat apa ? rather than you buy 5 cars, why dont you beli banglo sebijik ?! lagipuas hati semua orang kaan ? grr, dengan bb tak boleh on because i forgot where the hell i put my charger. okay, this morning arent going smoothly as i thought. grr. so, qayyum decide to go to danau tonight because ammar was like paksa2 sebab semalam cannot go because aint got no parking. padahal dah ronda ronda for almost 40 minutes cari parking SAHAJA -.- so, please make my daaay okay