TRUE LOVE DO EXIST

seriously i just watched a bunch of movies that prove true love do exist. so, here are some of the movies that i watched ALONE without friends nor boyfriend :)

l love the way you :

*the way you look at me

*the way you smile

*the way you blow your smoke

*the way you hold my hand

*the way you concentrate doing something

*the way you drive

*the way you call me 'sayang'

*the way you hug me

*the way you say iloveyou

*the way you eat

*the way you play sport

*the way you act

*the way you show me your love

*the way you care about me

*the way you respect my parents and siblings

*the way you laugh

*the way you walk

*the way you dress up

*the way you wait for me

SEM 2

finally holidayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyys :D im freakin free for two weeks y'all. but sadly mama and baba are to busy to take us for vacation -..- plus, i have tuition laah. haih. LOL, seriously like macam tak sedar diri nak SPM oh, haha. so, i duduk rumah je laah :( soooo sad kan. eventhough my friends ask me to hang out, but, entah lah. money dont grow on trees right. lagi2 cuti macam ni. memang money-less lah kan. so, hmm, a few boys asked me for a date. haha, boys always be boys. but i dont think im going. qayyum said, if i dont like any of them, so dont go. so yeah, i wont go. btw, please please come to my house. we can hang out at my house :) paling bestttttt -..-

My idol

my dad. he is my hero. i looked up on him. high look up ! okay, my grandparents told me, my dad is the only malay student who get 5 a's in his UPSR in Muar. so, he get a chance to continue his menengah at Malay College Kuala Kangsar (MCKK). a famous school which i know, it is everyone dream school. but it is so sad i cant study there because its a boy school. demmit -.- actually my lil brother got a chance to study there, but he turn it down sebab baba cakap situ ada hantu. LOL, no wonder ammar taknak, HAHA. haih. and my dad, he used to play rugby. he is on a rugby team in MCKK. how cooooool is that right. superb :D and im so proud on him. btw, he is the only person who always stand up for me when i told my family that im maybe continue my form 6. you know why ? sebab dia pun ambil form 6. and i remember he used told me, dia cakap, orang taknak ambik form 6 sebab takut. so yeah. i love him so much. forever i will be his angel.

dah lah tu cerita pasal orang. makin awak tu cerita kejahatan orang, makin awak tunjuk yang awak ni baik sangat. kalau saya salah faham, biar je lah. satu hari nnti Allah tu tunjuk jalan yang benar kat saya. tak payah lah awak sibuk sibuk. asalnya kita cerita pasal baju. baju je kut. tak payah nak mengelabah la :) takpe, saya pun doa biar awak tu bahagia :) jaga rumah tangga awak baik baik :) insyaallah, nnti saya pun akan jumpa jodoh yang boleh BIMBING saya jadi MATANG okay. tak perlu nak risau :)

I DONT NEED YOU

im trying to delete people who doesnt fit into my life. people that only bring me down, people that only can make me sad. those kind of people shouldnt be in my live. kena juga tendang keluar. buat menyemak.

LU PIKIR LAH SENDIRI

manusia memang banyak ragam kan :) kadang-kadang orng yang baik pun boleh jadi tak baik. memang nadh nampak baik. tapi kalau dah aysik kena pijak kepala pun, tak boleh juga. memang nadh salah sebab puja2 dia dulu. kalau dari awal nadh tau perangai dia mcm tu, sumpah demi allah nadh takkan terima dia dari awal. dah lah mempermainkan perasaan orang, curang, penipu, berlakon lebih. masalah sekarang, siapa yang sibuk dengan siapa ? nadh tak pernah kacau awak pun. nadh even taknak pun kenal dengan awak. nadh nak teruskan hidup, tiba2 awak datang. awak muncul awak buat semua yang nadh plan jadi tunggang terbalik. kalau awak tu perempuan, awak mesti faham perasaan nadh. awak cerita suma time bahagia awak dengan dia dekat nadh. awak pikir nadh takda perasaan ke ? awak pikir hati nadh ni batu? nadh sedih. tapi selalu nadh sembunyikan kesedihan nadh. nadh dah penat menangis. tapi bila awak datang, awak buat nadh sedih balik. awak sedar tak ?!! awak tak pernah pikir ? awak jangan cakap pasal Allah punya balasan. nadh tau. nadh pun selalu doa biar lelaki awak tu pun kena balas yang sama. oh, kalau nadh punya balasan awak pikir, lelaki awak punya balasan ? tuhan tu adil. nadh tau. mungkin dia senang hidup buat nadh mcm anjing dulu. sekali lagi nadh cakap, karma wujud. tak payah nak ingatkan nadh semua benda tu. hari ni hari awak :) awak pun boleh lah puja2 dia sekarang. tapi kalau dia dah buat apa yang dia buat kat nadh. baru awak rasa. sekarang ni awak boleh lah gelak2 dengan dia. sebab nadh tak nafikan, dia mmg baik. tapi sabar kejap lah kaan. mungkin ada hikmah dia tinggal nadh. tuhan tu nak tunjuk, orang mcm dia mmg tak layak untuk nadh. dulu kata perangai nadh mcm haram. jangan nak mempertikaikan orang lain kalau diri sendiri pun tak betul. jangan ingat diri kita je selalu betul. jgn selfish sangat. jangan pentingkan kebahagian sendiri kalau orang lain terseksa. cuba sehari jadi nadh, awak pun mesti rasa benda yang sama. so, shut up and leave me alone. biar hilang satu kawan asalkan tak terus menerus sakit hati. kalau awak rasa nadh ni tak beradap sopan dgn orang yang lebih tua, nadh tak kisah. nadh dah penat nak jaga hati orng. buat apa nadh nak jaga hati orng kalau orang still buat nadh sakit hati. tolong okay. nadh nak move on. tolong jgn buat life nadh jadi mcm kimak mcm dulu. nadh dah penat. please okay. delete lah nadh dari skype segala jadah. sebab nadh dah penat jadi good fakers ! so long, have a good life . assalamualaikum

sinserely :

nadh muzafar

DRESS UP HISTORY

dude, you have a worst dress up EVER IN HISTORY OF DRESS UP ! haha. LOL, it was so fucking funny and i cant stop laughing when i look at your picture. Ya Allah, apa kau pikir haa time tu ? mesti ingat kau hot gila kaaan ? :D demmit, didnt you look at the mirror before leave the house ? sumpah kau macam penyangak , haha. opss, i didnt meant to say it. but you really are looked like one :) gentle aku teringin nak letak gambar kau kat blog ni. but i cant. nnti kantoi lah kan :D OH MY GOD, dulu kau tak macam ni doh. haha. see, i cant even stop laughing now. btw, i showed it to some of my friends and this is how they reacted :

* the hell ?

*WTF, sial, haha

*HAHAHAHAHA.

*biar betul ?

haha, sorry dude, i didnt meant to stalked you. it just, hahaha, i just want to see how in the hell your life now. but i guess, it's getting worst. :D aurat tu jaga sikit, pfft. look at yourself first. TTYL .

THROUGH THICK AND THIN

Nur Syahirah Aisyah : she is my life. we been bestfriend for ages. 11 years now and still counting. eventhough she had moved out to Kelantan for study, but we still in contact. she told me, after SPM, she will move back to KL. seriously, i cant wait for that. im dying to meet her.

Maisarah : she is my everything. we talked a lot. about everything. i MEAN everything, haha. she is a good listener. she always lend me her shoulder whenever i needed. she's there for me anytime. i love her so much.

Nasuha : she is my girlfriend. we laugh a lot :D. i can feel paece-ness everything i look at her, haha. and seriously yeah. she's very calm and manner :) that's the reason why i love her so much

Nadia : we used to be friend before. but now, we are bestfriend :D so sad when she had to moved to MRSM :( but lucky she always manage to came back and asked us to hang out.

Farah : i know her since form 1. since that, we became bestfriend. she is very honest person. and i really love her personality.

Amalina : she is very soft-spoken and easy going :D i love her so much eventhough now we dont talk so much like before. but still, i consider her as my bff.

see, this is the reason why i dont need a boyfriend because my girls, they are the only person who never leave me. we go through thick and thin together.

you are my treasure,

i love you guys so much. thanks for being part of my life. im so bless to have two little cute cousin like Ryan and Rania. you always make me smile eventhough you are so freakin notty and buat kakngah naik gila lari sana lari sini for you, haha. i promise, bila kakngah dah ada driving license, i will always take you guys out okay :) kakngah bawa makan ice-cream, kita boleh pergi Aqua tengok fish okay sayang :)thanks for being mine. i love you sayang.

xoxo : kakngah.

AWAY

my parents and i was chillen in tv's room and suddenly baba started to talk about PLKN. duhh, i hated that topic so damn much but still, i have to listed to it :

baba : kakngah kalau dapat PLKN macam mana ?

me : no im not going.

baba : you have too okay. wajib pergi.

me : memang wajib, but still im not going.

mama : kalau tak pergi, kakngah kena bayar penalty 3000 ribu and you kena buat com-service.

me : please, kakngah betul2 taknak pergi okay. budak2 situ jahat. nanti dia bully2. kakngah macam mana ? haa ?

baba : siapa cakap ? no they wont laah. abang nip pergi, balik sihat sihat je.

me : baa, he had a fight okay. padahal baru seminggu kot kat sana. sebab apa ? sebab terjeling orang. terjeling okaaaay ! what's wrong with menjeling menjeling? haih.

mama : you will have a lot of fun there okay.

me : i will not have fun at PLKN okay. their mean. everybody mean !

mama : kena lah belajar jadi susah sikit.

me : sure. kakngah boleh je buat com.service. boleh jaga ammar amir suma bila bibik balik rather than go to PLKN. susah juga tu.

baba : if you dapat, you still have to go.

me : hmm.

baba : if macam ni lah perangai, macam mana nak survive kat Galatasaray nanti.

me : baa, it is different okay. i never complaint anything about Istanbul.

mama : ye laah. kalau PLKN 3 bulan jauh dari mama suma, ni apa lagi kat Istanbul nanti.

me : you said you want to follow me ? haha

mama : haha.

so, our canvo's ended here. and i've been thinking, if i cant survive in PLKN, who in the hell im gonna survive in Galatasaray ? hmm, i would do anything to make my parents happy. and i will try to land my foot there, insyaallah.

this is me i and myself

im a type of girl THAT :

- keep her promises

- love someone with all her heart.

- hangout at mamak's .

- wears big shirt and sweat pants and tie her hair like bun.

- eat alot.

- blogging at midnight.

- easy to wake up in the morning.

- cant cook but TRYING

- love to walk.

- love to play guitar heroes

- love to watch football, she is adie hard fans for chelsea :)

- sleeps with MATPET, her blue bear.

- hate math so damn much.

- love hungging people.

- uncountable guy friends.

- make her own money.

- wear bangles

- wear bright blue and pink nail polish.

- love balloon instead of flowers.

- closes to siblings.

- high ambition

- loyal

- hard to trust people.

- love to sport.

- can be a country girl

- hard to forget.

im a type of girl that DOESN'T :

- wears shorts.

- comb my hair.

- smoke.

- choosing.

- wear eye liner.

- listen to others say.

- copy others trend.

love me or hate me :) you choose.

the reason why im still single but not available

who doesn't want to be in love and to be loved. if you doesn't want that, i think you should go and meet some experts. i dont want some random guys like others. i just want a guy that love me for who i am not for something i have. i just need to find one regular normal guy that when he walk pass through me and i would say, 'i never met him before'. nahh. i want that such a guy. not some hotstuff nor rich. for me, that doesnt matter at all. what really matter is he can make me laugh all day long, make me feel like im the luckiest girl in the world and will never let me fall into the boring-ness hole. by the way, im so not piking at all. im just chosen the right person who i can lend him my precious heart. this heart has been broken so many time. for once, i will never lend it to someone who doesnt learn to appreciate it. for now, i still cant find my right person eventhough i had met out with bunch of guy that really wants me to be their princess. but somewhere in my heart tells me, one day he'll show up. god save someone for me. i just need to keep searching.

i love this song so much

hopefully you're going to sing me this song one day. :)

MID TERM

okay, start 9 mei, nadh akan mengadap exam mid term -..- haih. gila tak prepare apa pun. baca pun malas. asyik mengadap laptop je. penat lah nadh pikir mcm mana nak betul2 concentrate. last last nadh dapat idea :) nadh maybe akan stayback kat sekolah sampai petang then terus gerak tuition :) haa, tu je cara mcm mana tak asyik melekat dengan baby laptop ni :D alahai, dah lah nadh ada 22 papers kena jawab. exam pula sampai 27 mei. tak boleh lama lagi ke cikgu ? haha. but nasib baik lepas tu terus cuti sekolah two weeks. haih :D nadh sayang cikgu tapi kalau punya lama mcm ni, perghhh, sabar je lah ye -..- so, now, nadh aim, paling paling pun taknak ada yang fail. and sekurang kurangnya 3 a's :) amin. doakan nadh.

loves <3

so true

PEOPLE : damn, you move on so fast.

NADH : no, i've just learned to let go quicker. i choose not to waste too much time sulking in my own misery. thank you.

FUCKKK YOU

Honestly, I have come to hate you. Something I promised you never would happen. Just like you promised me forever. Well, I guess somethings aren’t forever and I guess some promises can’t be kept. You said this break up was for my own good but you hurt me more than you even know. So you are wrong, You went wrong. Not me. I did everything I could to be the best for you. I was willing to change everything. Maybe I went wrong there. I have to do things for me too. Well I am now. I am having fun, finally. Those days with you are gone. Go ahead and try to find someone better than me. Because you wont. But I will find someone better than you. Our memories will fade because I want them too. That chapter in my life is over and I wont go back. New chapters are starting to reveal themselves. And I am ready for them. So goodbye to you. I dont need you anymore. Have fun with whatever you do or whoever you are doing. Let me know when you “find yourself.” Because I would LOVE to see who that is because the person I was happy with is not who you are today.

BEST FRIEND FOREVER

Qaedy Ardani is the greatest friend i ever had. he’s always there when i needed someone to talk with. he been there for me though thin and think. remember when i fall into the deepest dark and never got any strength to climb back, yeah, qedy was the person who lend me his strength. i know he would never ever let me drown in tears like before. i really am a luckiest person in the word to have such a good friend like him. and i never regret knowing him. yeah, he is part of my life. eventhough he had moved to Sabah, i know we’ll meet again one day, insyaallah. if i can go to Sabah right now even for a while, i would brothaaa. for you. thanks for been there for me. i dump you before because of my ex. and when my ex dump me, you still here standing beside me and you would never let me fall apart. i love you brothaaa from another mothaaah, haha. promise when you come back to KL, we can be hangout sampai kau menyampah tgk muka aku, haha :)

loves : nadh muzafar.