barriers that never stop.

Assalamuaikum...

betul cakap orang, mulakan sesuatu yang baru adalah susah. macam2 dugaan dan halangan yang melanda. termasuk diri saya. dengan memakai tudung sering sekali saya diperlekehkan. tudung jarang lah, nampak rambut kat belakang lah, asik betulkan tudung lah dan macam2. bukan saya tak tau suma itu salah, tetapi saya baru sahaja mahu memulakannya. tak sangka tanggapan sebegini yang diberi. ini baru permulaan. Allah memberi hidayah supaya kita dapat mengikut ajaranNya. Adakah saya salah kerana memakai tudung pada usia yang awal ? saya rasa tidak. saya rasa saya sudah cukup tua dan matang untuk memulakan apa yang di perintah oleh Allah. tapi saya tidak faham dengan segelintir orang. adakah mereka pikir saya akan berubah menjadi nadhirah yang dahulu di kemudian hari ? adakah mereka rasa saya akan menyesal di kemudian hari ? Insyaallah tidak. saya sentiasa berdoa agar Allah kekalkan saya sebegini sehingga hujung hayat. saya bukan mengikut trend, saya juga bukan disuruh ataupun di paksa. memang saya lakukan dengan rela hati. memang pada mulanya apis yang menyuruh saya memakai tudung. tapi ketika itu mungkin saya belum mendapat petunjuk. bukan alasan saya memakai tudung sekarang untuk mengraih hati apis kembali. memang bukan sebab dia saya berubah menjadi seperti sekarang. tetapi saya tahu apis mesti gembira melihat perubahan saya sekarang. saya senang dengan perubahan saya. dan saya ingin sekali kongsi kegembiraaan saya dengan apis. tapi, belum rezeki dia untuk melihat saya yang baru. insyaallah, jika ada kesempatan.

change for ALLAH

Yesterday, i remove all my nail colours and i go to toilet to take air sembahyang to pray for mahgrib. after that im doing some sunat prayers. before waiting for isyak, i've read yassin. although i know some of part i've read is wrong, but InsyaAllah, god will accept it. im just about to start everything. when im doing my isyak pray, my tears are falling. i just realize how i lost in this cruel world. i dont want to live in sin anymore. at 12 a.m, i took my scarf. i seat infront of mirror and i wear it. Subhannallah, i just realize how pretty i am when im wearing it. then i take a decision to wearing it after this. i dont care what others say. i know i will never regret it. i know my time is come. Allah has open my eyes for me to follow all his rules.

And to Apis, Alhamdullilah. i've change. if only you can see me now. i know you'll be proud. even though im change, but my love toward you is never. i love you so much apis and only Allah know how much my love is.

To people around me, i do need your support. I really want to change. i apologize if i've done anything wrong. do not misguided me. i change for Allah. not for others. do keep praying for me. InsyaAllah, i will stay like this for ever.

loves : Nadh a <3

Baby Ryan.

Ryan :) kakngah sayang ryan sangat2. Ryan kena jadi budak good boy tau. Kakngah pun sayang Ryan number satu dalam dunia, haha. Kakngah suka kiss pipi ryan yang tak berapa gebu2 tu. lagi satu, selalu selalu la pukul si Rania tu ehh, ngee :D i LOVE you baby Ryan. You are my only one Ryan. I love you so much even though you are just only my little cousin.

LOL* - laughing out loud Trailer

sial aku nak tgk cerita ni -.- tak kiraaa. akan ku download smpai aku puas hati. misi pertama : kena tau cerita ni dah kluar ke belum (asik trailer je) misi ke dua : download smpai meletup laptop. misi ketiga : kena ajak orang besar tgk sbb cita ni 18sx. misi ke empat : charge RM 5 klu sesapa nak download movie ni dari aku. :)

sekian, terima kasih

you guys are damn hot!!! but you just a piece of crap. hot guy are so stupid little asshole. we all know you want. lucky im so not into hot guys now. i prefer being messy rather be near to someone like you guys. i dont need a popularity of just being sit next beside youu.

Raja murka.

this is base by a true story.

okay, in tuesday 16.9.2010, Raja Di hilir Perak came to my house (kampung tok halim) .WAIT!!! First of all, i dont want to brag about royalty thingy cos there is nothing to do with me okay. but i do admit my grandfather has close relationship with Tuanku. My grandfather used to lived with Tuanku at istana in Kuala Kangsar. And just to make it clear, my grandfather DO NOT WORKED AS A SERVANT. They both have blood relative. Im so proud to have him as my grandfather. okay okay. back to the story. Tuanku came to my house (Taiping) he came with his new wife and his daughter, his assistant and wife, and tuanku brothers but different mother and his wife and his daughter. Initially, everything was fine, but suddenly tuanku daughter started crying because she wanted to play with tuanku brother punya daughter but tuanku brother punya daughter want to eat. Time tu, Tuanku baru nak makan, and then he started to stand up and wash his hand. he said 'i cant stand my daughter crying, and its all about Arfa (tuanku brother punya daughter)' Pity her. She doesnt know anything. she just wanna stop playing for a while because shes hungry. And tuanku start murka and everybody start to quiet. Me and my uncle are looking at each other. Thank god we had nothing to do with it. But im still doesnt understand why did tuanku mad so much about it. these is nobody fault actly. But maby he had his own reason. my grandfather said to tuanku punya brother 'dia mmg kuat marah, but sekejap saje, jangan ambil hati'. soo, this is what happen. rasanya cuma tuanku saja yang dapat makan tapi tu pun sikit je.

ps : atlist i got shake tuanku hand :)

reunion WEC

haritu aisyah balik kl kejap tauu, sumpah lama gila tak jumpa diaaa. then kiteorng plan nak kuar. ajak ama, mai, nas. kiteorng plan nak bfast kat macd :) esoknya pagi2 suma dah texting tak sbr nak jumpaa. haha. time aku odw nak amik nas, aisyah text kata apek ngan kimi pun adaa. lagi meriah lah sbb kiteorng suma mmg sekepalaa. smpai je macd, ak terus jerit hug aisyah, haha. time tu suma pandang. but, KESAH pulaa aku, hahaahaa. kiteorng cakap2 mcm mak nenek. takde stop2. si apek ngan kimi ni asik dating je duaorng. meja kiteorng asing2. potpetpotpettttt. tngkap gmbar apa sumaa.best gila lahh! then time nak balik, kiteorng nak tgkap gmbar ramai2. tapi takda orng nak tangkapkan. tetiba ada dua orng budak baju pluto ni jalan depan kiteorng. aisyah gi kejar budak tu. dia dah panggil 'pluto plutooo!' tapi smpai hati dieorng orng tak layan. so then kiteorng suma gelak2 ahh. time tu pula kebetulan ada budak keling. aku pun menebalkan muka lah suruh dia tangkapkan. hahah. sumaorng kata aku muka tebal. alaaa, sekurang2nye kita dapatkan that golden shot. terima kasih kepada sape ? nadhirah jugaa, haha. plan lepas tu ingat nak main boling, tapi tak jadi sbb ramai sngt. lagipun apis mesti tak suka aku kat crowded2 mcm tuhh. then terus je trgerak hati nak tgk movie. pastu kiteorng jalan2..smpai satu kedai ni. kat kedai tu kiteorng beli mcm keychain yang boleh hang kat penselbox. girls punya warna pink, apek kimi warna mcm cream. thanks to kimi sbb bayarkann utk kiteorng :P before nak balik pun kiteorng smpat snap2. mcm orng jakun gilaaa. haha. like i said, KESAH lahhh. haha. besttt sngat. tah bila boleh jumpa aisyah lgi. rinduu ouhh. lepas spm, kiteorng nak buat reunion lagi. tapi yang ni gempak sikit sbb invited lagi ramaii :) hopefully jadi. amin.