i am precious

boy, i admit when you're gone, i was so upset. mcm nak mati rasanya. rasa mcm dunia ni meaningless. rasa mcm fuck laaah senang cerita. sejak you blah, mcm2 cerita i dengar. mmg tah ape2 laaah. i still ingat ayat you, ' kau ingat kau dah pakai tudung konon dapat hidayah kau boleh dapat lelaki lagi baik? dengan perangai kau mcm haram, setan pun jijik dengan kau!' woah, apa you rasa haa bila cakap mcm tu? rasa mcm you perfect sangat eh ? sorry cos i have to write this on my blog. sebab i rasa kata2 you tu agak melampau sikit. tapi i tak terasa pun. and you know why, because i can prove to you that i can get a better person more than you. guys yang tak ambik advantage dekat i. haha, daah buat mcm2 dekat i then kata, ' i nak girl yang boleh bimbing i. yang pakai tudung. yang blajar agama', dear sayang, before you find someone yang mcm tu, do repair yourself. taubat apa yang you pernah buat kat i or whoever dulu. i admit taau, since kita break, i banyak sembahyang banyak berdoa. bukan nak menunjuk but i nak you tau, i nak cari jodoh dgn orng yang betul2 syang i. and tak forget all their promises. unlike you boy. i dont know why dulu i puja sangat you. i rasa dulu you lagi hebat dari tuhan. mcm you ada everything. but now, you just a piece of old crap. you, i tak pernah nak malu nak mengaku pasal benda ni. cos this is my old stupid wasted memories. Alhamdullilah i sedar sekarang. plus orng cakap bunga bukan sekuntum, kumbang bukan seekor. so, i would love to have a journey with someone else. cos i would never give up on guys semata2 pasal kita. it will never happen. i dont care if you nak kata i anjing or what. im done listening to people who do not know appreciate me. sorry, i mmg tak berniat pun nak memburuk kan you. it just, people out there need to know the truth. i tau belakang i kemain you cerita i curaang laa bla bla bla. this time i need to stand up for myself. clearly i tak pernah pun curang. you cuma cari point to accuse me kaan. taknak jumpa i sebab takut i menangis begging2 mcm haritu. awal haritu cakap tak sayang but the last text cakap, 'actly i still sayang you before harini'. wtf laaah. and i just nak you tau, if sebab i gred you turun, well im not sorry. let it be a lesson for you my dear sweetheart. i harap sangat you jumpa orng yang boleh bimbing you. sebab you dah banyak terlanjur dalam dosa. bukan maksud i mcm i ni perfect sangat, tapi i think ehh, i know i am better then you :) good luck mister.