Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Monday, June 6, 2011
Sunday, June 5, 2011
BEAN : apis, serious aku nak cakap something. tapi jgn marah.
APIS : apa ?
BEAN : aku suka kat ex kau.
APIS : sape ?
BEAN : alahh, nadh.
APIS : *silent moment* kau biar betul. nadh ? nadh aku ?
BEAN : ha ah. nadh. *he looked at me*
APIS : kau jgn buat kelakar.
BEAN : aku serious doh. aku suka kat dia.
BLAH BLAH BLAAAAAH........................................
BEAN : kau okay tak ni apis ?
APIS : hmm, aku okay je. just, kau jaga je lah dia elok2. lagipun aku dah letgo dia kan.
BEAN : bukan apa apis. aku pikir kawan. aku nak kau okay.
APIS : yeah. aku okay.
NADH MASUK :
NADH : apis, nadh ni. hmm, hopefully you boleh accept kalau bean dgn i. i like him apis. he make me smile again.
APIS : hmm, seriously its your decision.
NADH : yeah. and i love him. its not fair kalau you je boleh happy apis. since you tinggal i, i hari2 sedih. but now i dah ada bean. please kasi i happy okay apis. tak fair kalau you happy and i tak.
APIS : i still love you nadh. kalau you nak tahu, hari2 i stalk fb you. i sayang kat you. but i guess, i should stop that.
NADH : yeah you should apis, cos you know why, the time that you kantoi dgn i kat NZ haritu, that was the last time ILOVEYOU. im sorry. i dah buang our history. i dah move on even though it takes a lot of time.
APIS : i know. im sorry too for everything. well, congrats both of you. please jaga bean.
NADH : i will. dont worry.
so yeah. apis was to little too late. if dia tak pentingkan ego dia dulu, well maybe JUST maybe, we still together. but seriously, i never regret anything. .
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Friday, June 3, 2011
we hang a lot lately. but not on purpose. we were like, teman kawan berdating and last last, i get caught by his dull eyes. i dont usually like this because i will never fall in love with a guy like him. for a certain reason. but who am i to bangggg the fate that has written in my life ? im a human too. seriously, everytime i look at him, im so breathless. and for the first time, i dont feel awkward when i talked to him. and i had a huge smile affixed at my face every single damn word we talked. and i haven't felt this for a long time.
but there are a bunch of problem. firstly, he is my exboyfriend friend. they were so close. and im afraid that if i being selfish, it will ruin their friendship. but if i dont stand up for myself, i would loss something that should be mine. and now, im so freakin confuse. i dont want to gamble away my future. and secondly, i was unsure that he had a same feeling towards me. you knowww, i cant force people to like me. yet again, he knows that im a exgirlfriend of his friend for almost two years. so he must been thinking about this like 1000x2 times even though he likes me.*example*
and now, im gonna stuck on this madness until i found a solution. for now, im gonna pretend like nothing happen even though my friends always make fun of us. so, insyaallah, i have a strength to control my feeling towards him. hopefully i wont ended heart broken like before. i know, some of you guys wondering who he was and some of you already know. so, let it be okay.
i have guts to write this because i know, he will never ever read it because he hasss no facebook and others sosial network. so, i think im save. i guess. hopefully. gosh. my life been turn upside down because of him. dammet !
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
“What” and “If” are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? I don’t know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it’s never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn’t it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don’t know what a love like Juliet’s feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I’d like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I will have the courage to seize it. And, Claire, if you didn’t, I hope one day that you will.
All my love, Juliet.
Monday, May 30, 2011
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Friday, May 20, 2011
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Friday, May 13, 2011
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Friday, May 6, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Qaedy Ardani is the greatest friend i ever had. he’s always there when i needed someone to talk with. he been there for me though thin and think. remember when i fall into the deepest dark and never got any strength to climb back, yeah, qedy was the person who lend me his strength. i know he would never ever let me drown in tears like before. i really am a luckiest person in the word to have such a good friend like him. and i never regret knowing him. yeah, he is part of my life. eventhough he had moved to Sabah, i know we’ll meet again one day, insyaallah. if i can go to Sabah right now even for a while, i would brothaaa. for you. thanks for been there for me. i dump you before because of my ex. and when my ex dump me, you still here standing beside me and you would never let me fall apart. i love you brothaaa from another mothaaah, haha. promise when you come back to KL, we can be hangout sampai kau menyampah tgk muka aku, haha :)
loves : nadh muzafar.
Friday, April 29, 2011
just watched prince william and kate middleton wedding. god, she is soooooooo pretty. i bet, she must be freaking nervous. duuh, you should be, girl. your married a PRINCE, haha. my god, you are the one of the most luckies woman in the world. your wedding is like every woman had dream for. who wouldnt right. and your dress make me wanna cry. it is heavenly beautiful. i want to wear that dress when i get married :) hmm, i hope you will live long together. you guys are perfect. and i just cant keep my eyes from prince harry. for god sake, he is sooooo damn one handsome bachelor, haha. grr, the more i write about them, the more jealous i get, soo i better stop it now. lovessss
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
maksud nadh, nadh tak nak in relation dengan sesiapa buat masa sekarng. nadh nak try move on hidup nadh ni. dan bukan bermaksud nadh still teperengkap in past. it just, nadh nak buat apa yang nadh tak boleh buat bila nadh dengan dia dulu. nadh nak berkawan, nadh nak bersukan, nadh nak stayback and macam2 lagi. dulu nadh tak dapat buat semua tu. and now, bila dah ada peluang, nadh nak buat :D
lagipun terlalu cepat nadh nak cakap pasal jodoh nadh, sebab buat masa sekarang, nadh belum jatuh hati dengan sesiapa. mungkin setakat crush2 tu ada lah. but nadh belum jumpa sesiapa yang betulbetul boleh jaga nadh. yang betulbetul boleh sayang nadh. nadh dah taknak memori lama terjadi balik. gentle nadh serik. nadh dah penat jatuh dalam lembah bohong orang lain. sekarang ni, nadh tak nafikan nadh ramai kawan lelaki. tapi jujur nadh cakap, suma tu cuma kawan. mungkin ada sesetengah pihak nampak nadh terlebih mesra dengan diaorng. tapi nadh tak boleh halang persepsi orang. jadi, terpulanglah diaorng nadh cakap apa sebab nadh sangat sangat dah tak larat nak jaga hati semua orang. nadh ni orang. nadh berhak happy dengan jalan hidup nadh.
sekarang ni, nadh dah terlalu happy dengan orang yang ada di sekeliling nadh. yang selalu kasi nadh nasihat. yang selalu buat nadh tabah dalam hidup :) cukup lah sengsara dulu. semua sengsara, pedih and jatuh nadh dulu nadh gantikan dengan kegembiraan yang tak pernah nadh rasakan dulu. nadh nak bebas. tapi bukan terlalu bebas sampai jatuh dalam lembah dosa nadh seperti dulu.
dah cukup nadh jaga perasaan orang. now, its my time. nadh dah tentukan jalan hidup nadh. nadh nak dapat keputusan yang paling baik dalam SPM. then nadh nak sambung study. insyaallah kalau ada rezeki, galatasary university pilihan nadh*doadoakan*. kemudian nadh nak kejar citacita nadh jadi famous amos lawyer. insyaallah by 23 or 24 or 25, nadh dah ready nak berkhawin. jodoh kalau boleh, nadh nak serahkan dekat parents. they know me better. okay, tu suma jauh lagi. now, nadh focus on my SPM first. lagipun jadual hidup nadh suma dah padat ! nadh dah tak ada masa nak main2 mcm dulu.
doakan nadh. insyaallah, amin.